Blast from the Past:
Letterman's Top 10 --
"George W. Bush Complaints About Fahrenheit 9/11”
10. That actor who played the president was totally unconvincing.
9. It oversimplified the way I stole the election.
8. Too many of them fancy college-boy words
7. If Michael Moore had waited a few months, he could have included the part where I get him deported.
6. Didn't have one of them hilarious monkeys who smoke cigarettes and gives people the finger.
5. Of all Michael Moore's accusations, only 97% are true.
4. Not sure — I passed out after a piece of popcorn lodged in my windpipe.
3. Where the hell was Spiderman?
2. Couldn't hear most of the movie over Cheney's foul mouth.
1. I thought this was supposed to be about dodgeball!"
Friday, September 29, 2006
Going to Evansville
Things are going OK here, but stressful. Monday I have to go to Evansville for a follow-up court date with J@R_. Six months ago I got the child support suspended, and in the meantime J@R_ and Biodad were supposed to get the paternity issue taken care of in Bloomington. Well, they both dragged their feet and didn’t get it resolved in time, and so now J@R_ and I both have to take off work and go back to Evansville, just so that the judge can yell at J@R_ for not getting it taken care of, and with luck suspend my child support for another six months while they do so. Since the Evansville court date was supposed to be cancelled once they got the paternity suit taken care of, I didn’t keep a personal day in reserve, so there was a lot of stress until my manager R0S# granted me an extra excused non-paid day off. So, I’m heading down to Evansville Sunday night, staying with M!M0, and then going to court at 9:30 in the morning. According to M!M0, the Fall Festival starts Monday, so maybe we can go and get some bad food before I head back to Indy. B^)
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Alive and Almost Well
Not too much news. My allergies tried to kill me this weekend, and I wound up missing work yesterday, but today I’m back and feeling better. A wonder what the proper medicine can do to make you feel human again.
In spite of my sickliness, I had a nice weekend – I got to see A1 and J@R_, and J@R_’s friend M31@, who was in town as well. Monday J3R0 had a mini-cookout, and while I was feeling too rotten to help, I did enjoy the yummy food and lay around and watched House. Yesterday I went to the doctor and got better allergy medicine, so today I’m back at work. W00t.
"I asked for universal health care, and all I got were these bombs."
- handmade anti-Bush poster
In spite of my sickliness, I had a nice weekend – I got to see A1 and J@R_, and J@R_’s friend M31@, who was in town as well. Monday J3R0 had a mini-cookout, and while I was feeling too rotten to help, I did enjoy the yummy food and lay around and watched House. Yesterday I went to the doctor and got better allergy medicine, so today I’m back at work. W00t.
"I asked for universal health care, and all I got were these bombs."
- handmade anti-Bush poster
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday, A1! Wish I could see you today on your sixth birthday!
-- Not the Daddy
-- Not the Daddy
Friday, April 28, 2006
Woohoo!
Woohoo! As of today, I got my first check sans child-support withholding. Financial recovery, here I come!
Biodad apparently marries his new fiancée this weekend, which will understandably suck for J@R_, who’ll be attending the wedding. Luckily for her, my sister is supposed to come down and help the weekend suck less, so, go, sis!
Work was horrible today, so not much else can be said. I’d like to go home and die now, but instead I have to eat, shower, and attend a party. Eep.
Biodad apparently marries his new fiancée this weekend, which will understandably suck for J@R_, who’ll be attending the wedding. Luckily for her, my sister is supposed to come down and help the weekend suck less, so, go, sis!
Work was horrible today, so not much else can be said. I’d like to go home and die now, but instead I have to eat, shower, and attend a party. Eep.
The United States should get out of the United Nations, and our highest national priority is enforcing U.N. resolutions against Iraq. – GOP Logic
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Woohoo!
They were still withholding child support payments from my paycheck, even though the payments should have been suspended. J3R0 looked up the numbers for me, and I called during my lunch and talked to the prosecutor’s office, who promised me they’d make sure the note to end my withholding would be sent out *today*. Yay actual no-hassle progress!
Woohoo!
They were still withholding child support payments from my paycheck, even though the payments should have been suspended. J3R0 looked up the numbers for me, and I called during my lunch and talked to the prosecutor’s office, who promised me they’d make sure the note to end my withholding would be sent out *today*. Yay actual no-hassle progress!
Woohoo!
”Being a drug addict is a moral failing and a crime, unless you're a conservative radio host. Then it's an illness and you need our prayers for your recovery.” – GOP Logic
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Child Support
*sigh* They’re still taking child support out of my check. I wonder who I have to bug now to get that taken care of…
Otherwise, my weekend is going OK. Had to work late last night because everyone else took off for Easter Weekend, and this morning I’m at work at 9:30 in the freakin’ morning. Joy.
Tonight I’m supposed to hang out with J3R0. We were going to go to St. Louis to visit her family, but she decided she didn’t want to drive, so now we’ll probably have dinner, go Krogering, and maybe visit a club. We’ll see.
Otherwise, my weekend is going OK. Had to work late last night because everyone else took off for Easter Weekend, and this morning I’m at work at 9:30 in the freakin’ morning. Joy.
Tonight I’m supposed to hang out with J3R0. We were going to go to St. Louis to visit her family, but she decided she didn’t want to drive, so now we’ll probably have dinner, go Krogering, and maybe visit a club. We’ll see.
Bush: Employment Record
• 2.4 million – Number of Americans who lost their jobs during the first two and half years of the Bush administration.
• 9 million – Number of workers unemployed as of September 2003.
• #1 – The administration is well on its way to being the first since Herbert Hoover's to preside over an overall loss of jobs during its complete term in office.
Friday, March 31, 2006
Court Date
Court went well yesterday -- for me, anyway. J@R_’s going to actually have to take care of the paternity issue, like I told her she would, which she’s not too happy about. I think she’d prefer to just have A1 as hers alone, but it’s a little too late for that now. At least my child support payments have been suspended, so maybe I can start to crawl slowly out of destitution now.
Dinner with Mom went OK. She’s depressed, which makes her a lot less annoying than when she’s manic, but also makes her kind of sad to hang out with. She didn’t complain when I had to leave to head back to Indy, but I could tell she wasn’t too happy about it, either. *sigh*
Today sucks, as only Fridays in this department can. I even have to work tomorrow, so I don’t even have the end-of-week joy to make it better. Thank Murphy for E-time – I’m leaving two hours early.
Dinner with Mom went OK. She’s depressed, which makes her a lot less annoying than when she’s manic, but also makes her kind of sad to hang out with. She didn’t complain when I had to leave to head back to Indy, but I could tell she wasn’t too happy about it, either. *sigh*
Today sucks, as only Fridays in this department can. I even have to work tomorrow, so I don’t even have the end-of-week joy to make it better. Thank Murphy for E-time – I’m leaving two hours early.
Bush: Loves to Travel
• 65 – Approximate number of fund-raisers attended in 2002.
• 0 – Number of trips taken to Afghanistan before waging war against that country.
• 0 – Number of trips taken to Iraq before waging war against that country.
• 0 – Number of funerals or memorials Bush has attended for soldiers killed in Iraq.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Child Support Progress
Yesterday I drove down to Evansville and finally turned in the paperwork to end the paying of child support for A1, since biologically he’s not my son, and financially I can no longer afford to support him and his out-of-work biodad. I was worried about not having the forms filled out properly, but the clerk at the juvenile court was very helpful and sweet, and made sure I had everything filled out correctly and submitted. We even have a court date already – March 30th, my mom’s birthday. That actually works out well, since my mom will be in Evansville that week, so I can go to court, and then take my mom out to celebrate afterwards. Good news for a change. Woohoo!
Bush: The Environment
• 58 million- Number of acres of public lands Bush has opened to road building, logging, and drilling.
• 200 - Number of public-health and environmental laws Bush has worked to downgrade or weaken since taking office.
• #1 - Rank of U.S. worldwide in terms of greenhouse gas emissions.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Break-Up
Well, Biodad and J@{ broke up. I feel bad for her, although I’m not sure how I feel about the situation in general. I’m hoping it doesn’t bode ill for the child support issues, since I’m just about ready to finally send in the paperwork (nine months later…) to end paying for A1, and that last thing I need is last-minute complications. According to her MySpace-mail, it was an amicable breakup, so with luck they won’t have any co-parenting issues, and maybe J@{ will have a little more freedom again to be herself, which seemed a little quashed there for a while. Guess I’ll just wish them the best, and try to get through the appropriate paperwork and court date as soon as possible, before anything else changes.
Bush: "Compassionate" Conservative
• $300 million – Amount cut in December 2002 from the federal program that provides subsidies to poor families so they can heat their homes during the winter.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Blessed Silence
In a stroke of rare mad genius, I changed my mother’s custom ring to Silent. Now, I never have to be bugged by her calling again. She still shows up on the missed call list (6 Missed Calls… wow, wonder who that could be?), but I don’t have to turn my ringer off completely just to avoid her. I should have done this years ago…
"[The] argument... is that the president, as commander in chief, is the law when it comes to the enemy... unchecked by the courts or any other authority.... That's a very dangerous notion for a free country."
—Newsday editorial, "Tormented Truths," June 10
Friday, December 30, 2005
So this is Christmas
Alas, my Christmas was pretty interesting. J3R0 and I had stayed up really late the night before, and so we wound up sleeping in pretty late on Sunday. I’d misplaced my cell phone, and didn’t find it until about 3 PM – along with a lot of missed calls, and a snippy “some communication would be nice” text message from my sister. Oops.
J3R0 and I went ahead and got ready, and I waited to call my sister ‘til I was actually on the road – I didn’t want to tell her we were on my way until I was sure there actually wouldn’t be any more delays.
We got to Cincinnati around six, and mom had called to ask if we could pick up chicken – not a good sign, since she’d promised a big Christmas dinner, and it was obvious as we hit town that not only was it not ready, but she hadn’t even picked up the ingredients.
When we got there, C#H_ was livid, and mom was crazy and manic, as usual. There was no Christmas dinner, which was my fault because I hadn’t given them a better ETA… apparently “Christmas around dinnertime” plus two-hour’s notice wasn’t enough for them to adjust at all. Luckily, C#H_ saved things by going out and getting ingredients for a yummy spaghetti dinner, although it was still embarrassing to have my mother turning off the CD to sing to J3R0, and taking her aside whenever Mom managed to divert my attention. I set up Mom’s cell phone to get her off my back about it, and that at least gave us some peace while she called and bugged other people. Finally, she wandered back to the pub (from where C#H_ had to retrieve her earlier in the evening already), and J3R0 and I had some quiet time to hang out with C#H_, who had finally calmed down. It was nice to see C#H_, and to have J3R0 on the ride there and back, but otherwise it was a disaster. At least I got some nice presents from C#H_ out of the deal. B^)
J3R0 and I went ahead and got ready, and I waited to call my sister ‘til I was actually on the road – I didn’t want to tell her we were on my way until I was sure there actually wouldn’t be any more delays.
We got to Cincinnati around six, and mom had called to ask if we could pick up chicken – not a good sign, since she’d promised a big Christmas dinner, and it was obvious as we hit town that not only was it not ready, but she hadn’t even picked up the ingredients.
When we got there, C#H_ was livid, and mom was crazy and manic, as usual. There was no Christmas dinner, which was my fault because I hadn’t given them a better ETA… apparently “Christmas around dinnertime” plus two-hour’s notice wasn’t enough for them to adjust at all. Luckily, C#H_ saved things by going out and getting ingredients for a yummy spaghetti dinner, although it was still embarrassing to have my mother turning off the CD to sing to J3R0, and taking her aside whenever Mom managed to divert my attention. I set up Mom’s cell phone to get her off my back about it, and that at least gave us some peace while she called and bugged other people. Finally, she wandered back to the pub (from where C#H_ had to retrieve her earlier in the evening already), and J3R0 and I had some quiet time to hang out with C#H_, who had finally calmed down. It was nice to see C#H_, and to have J3R0 on the ride there and back, but otherwise it was a disaster. At least I got some nice presents from C#H_ out of the deal. B^)
"It's been a fabulous year for Laura and me."
-- George W. Bush, three months after the World Trade Center towers went down
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Mr. Bigglesworth -- er, I mean, Dog Roland
The bonfire Saturday night was a lot of fun – it was nice to chill with a group of my friends that I seldom get to see, and not have to deal with any drama for an evening. E- even brought Mr. Dog Roland, so it was cute to see him running around the yard on his stubby little legs.
Oh, no – I think I’m being won over to wiener dogs! *facepalm*
Must remember – little over-bred mutant aberrations! Not the cutest thing in the canine kingdom!
Arrgh!
Even more odd is the fact that E- just carries him around everywhere she goes, petting him, like he’s Mr. Bigglesworth. For Primus’s sake – when did she become a Bond villain?
Ah, well. Work day is over. Heading out of here.
Oh, no – I think I’m being won over to wiener dogs! *facepalm*
Must remember – little over-bred mutant aberrations! Not the cutest thing in the canine kingdom!
Arrgh!
Even more odd is the fact that E- just carries him around everywhere she goes, petting him, like he’s Mr. Bigglesworth. For Primus’s sake – when did she become a Bond villain?
Ah, well. Work day is over. Heading out of here.
Bush Posts Classified Ad For 90,000 Troops
WASHINGTON, DC—In an effort to relieve the burden on his overextended armed forces in Iraq, President Bush placed a four-line classified ad in the Monday edition of 75 U.S. newspapers. "WANTED: motivated, dedicated, obedient people looking for career in growing field of nation liberation," the ad read. "90,000 jobs avail. F/T days, nights, weekends. No exp. necessary. Will train. Arabic a plus. Starter pay, solid bnfts." To further boost military enlistment rates, Bush plans to post the job offer at employment offices in 300 cities across the country.
-- The Onion
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Well, I finally got the form I need to petition the court to end my child support. My mom pointed out today that I’ve given an extra $2000 from my paycheck since I found out in May that I’m not A1’s biological father, and I’m still paying J@{’s cell phone to boot. I actually got a copy of the form during my vacation last month, but then I got really sick, and it’s one of the things I didn’t get to. Now, I guess, I’ve just been procrastinating. I’m not sure I have all the information I need, but that’s just an excuse because I haven’t actually looked yet, and the real problem is that I just hate paperwork. However, that $2000 is a pretty good reminder that I need to take care of this immediately, so maybe I’ll fill out what I can at work during my break, and then finish it when I get home and get it mailed.
At least the process itself shouldn't be too painful. Apparently, once I petition to have the child support changed, they'll call J@{ and I into a hearing, like they did with the initial child support establishment hearing. J@{ and I are in agreement that the child support responsibility should be transferred over to N@7, so as long as we bring the paternity results, with luck there won't be a problem with that. Of course, that means N@7 might have to get a real job, but that'll be their problem.
In an important speech…, George Bush attempted to portray how important his faith is in his life. He of course was trying to apply what he's learned from his father….
In his typically condescending, smug manner, he said his favorite Bible verse is John 16:3. Of course, the speech writer meant 3:16, but wasn't even familiar enough with this often-quoted & of course often taken-for-granted Scripture to catch the error. Neither was Bush, and how incredibly appropriate it is.
"And they will do this because they have not known the Father or me."
— John 16:3
-- syndicated columnist Cal Thomas, Blinded by Might: Can the Religious Right Save America?
At least the process itself shouldn't be too painful. Apparently, once I petition to have the child support changed, they'll call J@{ and I into a hearing, like they did with the initial child support establishment hearing. J@{ and I are in agreement that the child support responsibility should be transferred over to N@7, so as long as we bring the paternity results, with luck there won't be a problem with that. Of course, that means N@7 might have to get a real job, but that'll be their problem.
In an important speech…, George Bush attempted to portray how important his faith is in his life. He of course was trying to apply what he's learned from his father….
In his typically condescending, smug manner, he said his favorite Bible verse is John 16:3. Of course, the speech writer meant 3:16, but wasn't even familiar enough with this often-quoted & of course often taken-for-granted Scripture to catch the error. Neither was Bush, and how incredibly appropriate it is.
"And they will do this because they have not known the Father or me."
— John 16:3
-- syndicated columnist Cal Thomas, Blinded by Might: Can the Religious Right Save America?
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Parent Center
I unsubscribed to Parent Center today. I’m no longer involved in decisions involving A1… I’m informed of them after the fact. The Parent Center emails were just another depressing reminder. *sigh*
I need to go to court, still, to stop the child support payments. For extra cash, I can secure visitation rights, but I really hope I don’t have to take it that far. People have urged me to sue to get back some of what I’ve already paid, but I don’t really want to be an additional burden to A1's new nuclear family. I just don’t want to be paying N@+’s share anymore, since as much as I love A1, I don’t have the opportunity anymore to feel much like his dad . B^/
Ah, well. Break's over. Back to work.
Bu$h/Cheney: Over a billion Whoppers served.
I need to go to court, still, to stop the child support payments. For extra cash, I can secure visitation rights, but I really hope I don’t have to take it that far. People have urged me to sue to get back some of what I’ve already paid, but I don’t really want to be an additional burden to A1's new nuclear family. I just don’t want to be paying N@+’s share anymore, since as much as I love A1, I don’t have the opportunity anymore to feel much like his dad . B^/
Ah, well. Break's over. Back to work.
Bu$h/Cheney: Over a billion Whoppers served.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Invincible
J@{ brought A1 to visit me finally, at the end of last month. It was really nice to see them both – A1 is still cute as ever, and J@{ was pretty adorable as well.
We had talked about them swimming in my pool, but J@{ didn’t want to stay that late, so we put off that idea until a time when they can visit on a weekend, and stay longer.
Instead, I showed them my apartment, and then we went to Houlihan’s for dinner. Overall, I had a really nice time – it was great to see A1, and J@{ and I got along fairly well. The only snag was when I asked why I wasn’t allowed to visit their house, and she confirmed that N@7 doesn’t like me – no surprise, really, since you generally don’t secretly knock up the girlfriends of people you like. Still, I’ve been willing to put aside my distaste of him, and I would hope that after the mindfuck he dropped on my life, he’d be willing to do the same, if not apologize for his part in this fiasco. Still, that is apparently too much to ask, so I guess it’ll be a while before I see A1’s new home. As long as J@{ brings A1 up here to see me, I suppose that’s just fine.
Which Ringwraith are You?
By Lisa
We had talked about them swimming in my pool, but J@{ didn’t want to stay that late, so we put off that idea until a time when they can visit on a weekend, and stay longer.
Instead, I showed them my apartment, and then we went to Houlihan’s for dinner. Overall, I had a really nice time – it was great to see A1, and J@{ and I got along fairly well. The only snag was when I asked why I wasn’t allowed to visit their house, and she confirmed that N@7 doesn’t like me – no surprise, really, since you generally don’t secretly knock up the girlfriends of people you like. Still, I’ve been willing to put aside my distaste of him, and I would hope that after the mindfuck he dropped on my life, he’d be willing to do the same, if not apologize for his part in this fiasco. Still, that is apparently too much to ask, so I guess it’ll be a while before I see A1’s new home. As long as J@{ brings A1 up here to see me, I suppose that’s just fine.
Which Ringwraith are You?
By Lisa
Friday, June 24, 2005
Testes, testes... 1... 2.... 3?
Testing this whole "post by email" business. Let's see if this works...
-- Taka
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"I am government man, come from the government. The government has sent me." -- GIR, Invader Zim
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"I am government man, come from the government. The government has sent me." -- GIR, Invader Zim
Monday, June 06, 2005
Birthday Weekend
Well, I didn’t get to see A7 on my birthday, because J@} says he was sick, but with luck we’ll get to reschedule soon. I had a pretty good birthday otherwise – depression marred some of it, but a few of my friends showed up to help me try to have a good time anyway, and overall they did a pretty good job. Friday and Saturday night I went out to different clubs with E- and J{R0 and had a good time there, and Saturday afternoon C@-0 came over to hang out a bit, which was nice. B@ came into town Sunday, but I was really feeling wretched and couldn’t bring myself to leave my apartment, so I stayed in and slept ‘til I felt better, and then finally headed out with J{R0 to drown my sorrows in a Portobello sandwich and a quick pop into a fetish party to see Moth. Then J{R0 bought be a replacement DVD player for my birthday (my old one got stolen), and after a lot of fighting with cords, we settled in and watched Buffy. A nice end to a very up-and-down weekend.
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Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"
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I am Godless! I couldn’t care less about religion. As far as I’m concerned, if I can't see, touch and kick something, it's not real to me. My day-to-day activities consist of eating, working, sleeping and the occasional Internet or coffee shop debate. Lastly, if anyone chooses to preach at me otherwise, I will either leave or debate them until they finally shut up.
Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"
Friday, May 13, 2005
Family Drama, and Margaret Cho
Well, yesterday sucked. I got to see Margaret Cho, which was wonderful as always, but before that – major suckage.
I worked from 2 AM to 10:30 AM, which is forever a dream. When I got home I had trouble sleeping, thanks to all the stress this week. At 12:30 PM J@} called, to give me an update on things. Apparently, N@+ basically lives there now, and he already has A7 calling him "Daddy." I have been relegated to "Old Dad" by A7, who sounds confused on what to call me in light of the new status quo. J@} said that A7 cried when she told him, oops, she made a mistake, and that N@+ is actually his daddy. A7 asked if that meant I didn’t get to see him anymore. B^(
Luckily, it doesn’t, but since it seems that N@+ and she are (back to?) dating already, and certainly plan to when they move in together, it’s going to be a much more awkward and sudden a transition than I’d originally anticipated. N@+’s understandably anxious to start making up for five missed years of fatherhood, but that pretty much means that *my* five years of devotion, love, and support feel mostly out the window – I’ll just be informed of decisions from now on, and I can visit him the same as I would any other couple’s kid… although J@} is going out of her way to ask that N@+ at least sleep somewhere else on A7’s birthday next week, so I can come down and see A7 without having to deal with his “new” dad. Sweet of her, I know.
J@} said she’s dropping out of school, since all of this is too much to deal with and classes, too, and I guess she’ll be supporting N@+ ‘til he gets his degree, and then he’s supposed to support her until she gets her degree. It’ll be nice to have A7 (and J@}) so close physically, but with N@+ there, it’ll be a little icky and uncomfortable at first. I’ll have to suck it up if I want to see A7, but after J@}’s initial slew of sincere apologies, I’m really feeling shoved aside. I hope it’s just because of newness and stress – I’d hate to think I’m really going to be tossed aside this cavalierly after being A7’s dad for five years. I’ve made A7 my top priority as far as financial support, holidays, job choices, vacation time, weekends, etc, and now I’m feeling like I’m getting an, “Ooops. Never mind. N@+’s the dad now. Catch ya later!” from the new ‘nuclear family.’
So, anyway, after/while dealing with all this, I tried to get a little sleep so I could enjoy the Margaret Cho performance last night. J{R0 came over after work, and snuggled with me, which did help me finally stop tossing and turning. However, it meant that I was in full-on zonk mode by the time the alarm went off at 5:15 PM. I tried to struggle out of bed, but I was cranky, tired, and already running late when E- called at 6:50 PM. She asked if I was going to see Margaret Cho, and I told her yes.
She immediately started into me about the fact that originally, months ago, I’d planned to go with her, and whichever of our friends we wanted to invite along. Of course, since then, she decided she hates me, and for a while she wasn’t even talking to me. So, when I got tickets, I just got them for J{R0, L!I~ and me, since that’s all I could afford. I felt bad not inviting other friends who I know would have loved to go, but I’ve had so much pressure lately that I just didn’t feel up for coordinating a group of 20, and trying to scare up the cash to get a dozen seats together (“I’ll pay you back you later” seldom seems to materialize). I figured I’d just personally bring along a couple of my Indy friends, and E- could bring along her friends separately, and maybe if she and I were talking by then, afterward we could all go out for subversive pie.
This, of course, wasn’t good enough for E-. Even though she hadn’t bothered to ask me my Cho plans until an hour before the performance, according to E-, when I ordered the tickets I should have called her and asked if she still wanted to go, even though at the time she wasn’t even talking to me. And, when the performance approached, I should have called her and invited her to join us, even though it was too late to get seats together, and she’d have wound up by herself (or with other late-goers) anyway.
E- and I had kind of developed a sort of truce since the bottom fell out of my entire identity as A7’s father, but it seems that good will lasted a grand total of two days, because by last night E- was laying into me again, and expecting me to beg and grovel for her forgiveness about something that frankly, compared to all the other shit in my life right now, I really didn’t care. So, after establishing herself as the most self-centered bitch in the universe, she finally hung up on me, and J{R0, L!I~ and I finally made it to the show, which was awesome enough to make up for all the other crap I’d had to put up with last night.
Splendid Margaret Cho actually made me laugh and smile again, which was both necessary and wonderful.
I worked from 2 AM to 10:30 AM, which is forever a dream. When I got home I had trouble sleeping, thanks to all the stress this week. At 12:30 PM J@} called, to give me an update on things. Apparently, N@+ basically lives there now, and he already has A7 calling him "Daddy." I have been relegated to "Old Dad" by A7, who sounds confused on what to call me in light of the new status quo. J@} said that A7 cried when she told him, oops, she made a mistake, and that N@+ is actually his daddy. A7 asked if that meant I didn’t get to see him anymore. B^(
Luckily, it doesn’t, but since it seems that N@+ and she are (back to?) dating already, and certainly plan to when they move in together, it’s going to be a much more awkward and sudden a transition than I’d originally anticipated. N@+’s understandably anxious to start making up for five missed years of fatherhood, but that pretty much means that *my* five years of devotion, love, and support feel mostly out the window – I’ll just be informed of decisions from now on, and I can visit him the same as I would any other couple’s kid… although J@} is going out of her way to ask that N@+ at least sleep somewhere else on A7’s birthday next week, so I can come down and see A7 without having to deal with his “new” dad. Sweet of her, I know.
J@} said she’s dropping out of school, since all of this is too much to deal with and classes, too, and I guess she’ll be supporting N@+ ‘til he gets his degree, and then he’s supposed to support her until she gets her degree. It’ll be nice to have A7 (and J@}) so close physically, but with N@+ there, it’ll be a little icky and uncomfortable at first. I’ll have to suck it up if I want to see A7, but after J@}’s initial slew of sincere apologies, I’m really feeling shoved aside. I hope it’s just because of newness and stress – I’d hate to think I’m really going to be tossed aside this cavalierly after being A7’s dad for five years. I’ve made A7 my top priority as far as financial support, holidays, job choices, vacation time, weekends, etc, and now I’m feeling like I’m getting an, “Ooops. Never mind. N@+’s the dad now. Catch ya later!” from the new ‘nuclear family.’
So, anyway, after/while dealing with all this, I tried to get a little sleep so I could enjoy the Margaret Cho performance last night. J{R0 came over after work, and snuggled with me, which did help me finally stop tossing and turning. However, it meant that I was in full-on zonk mode by the time the alarm went off at 5:15 PM. I tried to struggle out of bed, but I was cranky, tired, and already running late when E- called at 6:50 PM. She asked if I was going to see Margaret Cho, and I told her yes.
She immediately started into me about the fact that originally, months ago, I’d planned to go with her, and whichever of our friends we wanted to invite along. Of course, since then, she decided she hates me, and for a while she wasn’t even talking to me. So, when I got tickets, I just got them for J{R0, L!I~ and me, since that’s all I could afford. I felt bad not inviting other friends who I know would have loved to go, but I’ve had so much pressure lately that I just didn’t feel up for coordinating a group of 20, and trying to scare up the cash to get a dozen seats together (“I’ll pay you back you later” seldom seems to materialize). I figured I’d just personally bring along a couple of my Indy friends, and E- could bring along her friends separately, and maybe if she and I were talking by then, afterward we could all go out for subversive pie.
This, of course, wasn’t good enough for E-. Even though she hadn’t bothered to ask me my Cho plans until an hour before the performance, according to E-, when I ordered the tickets I should have called her and asked if she still wanted to go, even though at the time she wasn’t even talking to me. And, when the performance approached, I should have called her and invited her to join us, even though it was too late to get seats together, and she’d have wound up by herself (or with other late-goers) anyway.
E- and I had kind of developed a sort of truce since the bottom fell out of my entire identity as A7’s father, but it seems that good will lasted a grand total of two days, because by last night E- was laying into me again, and expecting me to beg and grovel for her forgiveness about something that frankly, compared to all the other shit in my life right now, I really didn’t care. So, after establishing herself as the most self-centered bitch in the universe, she finally hung up on me, and J{R0, L!I~ and I finally made it to the show, which was awesome enough to make up for all the other crap I’d had to put up with last night.
Splendid Margaret Cho actually made me laugh and smile again, which was both necessary and wonderful.
I’m a love-sick human being.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Hello?
Hey! I created this a while back, because my friend A~ has one, but I never did anything with it, and the one post I made about getting this blog I never actually published. So, since my gorgeous babymomma just got a blog, I decided to try again, this time with actually published posts. Like her, I don't know if this time I'll actually keep up on it, but who knows -- it could happen! In the meantime, I'll waste time with quiz results. B^)
Hi, J@}!
== Taka
BELIEF SYSTEM SELECTOR RESULTS
1. Secular Humanism (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (92%)
3. Liberal Quakers (78%)
4. Theravada Buddhism (73%)
5. Non-theist (72%)
6. Neo-Pagan (65%)
7. Mainline - Liberal Christian Protestants (63%)
8. New Age (54%)
9. Taoism (52%)
http://www.selectsmart.com/RELIGION
Hi, J@}!
== Taka
BELIEF SYSTEM SELECTOR RESULTS
1. Secular Humanism (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (92%)
3. Liberal Quakers (78%)
4. Theravada Buddhism (73%)
5. Non-theist (72%)
6. Neo-Pagan (65%)
7. Mainline - Liberal Christian Protestants (63%)
8. New Age (54%)
9. Taoism (52%)
http://www.selectsmart.com/RELIGION
Wednesday, January 19, 2000
The Real Me
Well, if you don't know already, I'm an Italian Polish Irishman, born in New York City, and raised (not reared) all over the place, but mostly here in good ol' Indianer, home of incest, animal husbandry, and sometimes a bizarre combination of the two.
I'm currently a grad student at Ball State University, a loser school for drunkards (where I, as a teetotaller, fit RIGHT in). I completed Bachelor of Arts in Psychology here, with official minors in Japanese and Sociology, and unofficial minors in gender studies and chemistry, and so far it has done diddly in getting me a real job. ^_^
^_^
One of the greatest things that's ever happened to me (besides the love of some very good friends) is the trip I took to Asia. I moved my little notes about it to its own little page, which may eventually have pictures, journals, etc, depending on how much free time I can find. ^_^
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As for hobbies, besides wasting my time on these pages, I like to MU* when I can find the time. At Beast Wars II, I play Scales, a Predacon lawyer. What could be lower than that? On Transformers 2005 I play Melinda Lossman, Dead End, Dealiticus the Quintesson, and my favourite (but, unfortunately, least played character, Benin-Jeri. On Genesis I play Headlight, Kinzokutaka, and, occasionally, Metalhawk, when Rogue's on. ^_^ On Transformers Exodus, I play a Bot named Postal, who's generally an easy-going guy, but can snap if you push him. ^_^ On Lost Years I play a Decepticon warrior named Valour; he's a heroic Decepticon, which I make a bit different than your average Decepticon stereotype. At TransFormers Universe I play a Weatherbot named Typhoon, and have an admin character, simply named Brian. Occasionally, when I'm feeling REALLY adventurous, I like to role-play face-to-face, running adventures in the Storyteller system usually, with occasional breaks for CyberSpace, Paranoia, Marvel SuperHeroes, or whatever. My friend Mira runs Storyteller games, too; RIFTS and Star Wars are Mars's specialty.
Another hobby that eats away at my time an soul is my "underground" zine, RIP Off Magazine, now available on-line *woohoo!* ^_^.
I'm currently a grad student at Ball State University, a loser school for drunkards (where I, as a teetotaller, fit RIGHT in). I completed Bachelor of Arts in Psychology here, with official minors in Japanese and Sociology, and unofficial minors in gender studies and chemistry, and so far it has done diddly in getting me a real job. ^_^
^_^
One of the greatest things that's ever happened to me (besides the love of some very good friends) is the trip I took to Asia. I moved my little notes about it to its own little page, which may eventually have pictures, journals, etc, depending on how much free time I can find. ^_^
8)
As for hobbies, besides wasting my time on these pages, I like to MU* when I can find the time. At Beast Wars II, I play Scales, a Predacon lawyer. What could be lower than that? On Transformers 2005 I play Melinda Lossman, Dead End, Dealiticus the Quintesson, and my favourite (but, unfortunately, least played character, Benin-Jeri. On Genesis I play Headlight, Kinzokutaka, and, occasionally, Metalhawk, when Rogue's on. ^_^ On Transformers Exodus, I play a Bot named Postal, who's generally an easy-going guy, but can snap if you push him. ^_^ On Lost Years I play a Decepticon warrior named Valour; he's a heroic Decepticon, which I make a bit different than your average Decepticon stereotype. At TransFormers Universe I play a Weatherbot named Typhoon, and have an admin character, simply named Brian. Occasionally, when I'm feeling REALLY adventurous, I like to role-play face-to-face, running adventures in the Storyteller system usually, with occasional breaks for CyberSpace, Paranoia, Marvel SuperHeroes, or whatever. My friend Mira runs Storyteller games, too; RIFTS and Star Wars are Mars's specialty.
Another hobby that eats away at my time an soul is my "underground" zine, RIP Off Magazine, now available on-line *woohoo!* ^_^.
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